ok, i thought i'd share some photos here. the upload isn't working and now i'm fed up. and then i thought i have to post. i mean since i'm already here just do it.

this has been on my mind for a long, long time. solitude makes you pensive.

with help from Neruda...


...Cuando quiero llorar no puedo
Ni lloro sin querer.

Soñé.


Hoy amanezco.

Empieza mi llanto eterno.

Dead! No way dead!

Very much alive. Just taking a break... what's wrong with that. I need it and i deserve it.

I have loads of things to do. My back is already hurting with all this burden. I know i chose it and therefore i will achieve it. But really, all i really, truly want is a break.

I've been told i plan too much for my life. I plan well into the future, a future that after all, may not even come. but i can't live without making those plans. i need to feel that my life has direction. that's how i've reached here. two dissertations to start and finish. a whole application process pending. two course works to complete. a trip to be made. have to think aboout starting to teach again. i want to and i also need it for my c.v (my future plans depend on it, you see!).

other than all this, i wanted to join the Hyderabad choral society, learn german, excercise, catch up on my reading, learn cooking, do a photography course. these are things i'm putting off for later. i have to set priorities.

don't worry. keeping up my blog is certainly one of them.